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# I Wish I Still Had Time to Ask About The Camellias
- URL: https://www.journal.ninthheaven.co/issue-2-blue-spring/poem-i-wish-i-still-had-time-to-ask-about-the-camellias-by-erin-weeks/
- Published: 2026-02-10T06:22:25.000Z
- Updated: 2026-07-13T15:26:07.000Z
- Description: "This piece focuses on the realization that I can no longer ask my grandmother, who has dementia, about the details of her life when she was younger; it's a reflection on memories being lost within a person."
- Author: Erin Weeks
- Tags: Issue II - Blue Spring, Poetry, Literature & Poetry

## **I Wish I Still Had Time to Ask About The Camellias**

**by Erin Weeks** 

I’ve been thinking about grandmothers

and the way they toss basketfuls of heat lightning

from cloud to inheritor cloud

removing pits from the flesh of brined mythology

to be canned and shelved before parhelion, when the sun’ll split

into smiles of fool’s gold.

When mine was born they named

her *brightness*, and she

took the light with her to the end of the world

where the camellias are.

I know only so much;

from her own grandmother’s home she bird-walked

through time, disentangling the world from itself

with a fine-toothed comb, claiming her place in a catty-corner of

brief, small-town sky.

Now, directionless planes go on,

bending the flowers they pass overhead

and cutting distrails through what she never thought

to say.

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### **Author Bio**

*Erin Weeks is a poet and journalist native to South Carolina. Her personal writing often focuses on themes of home and nostalgia, and her first chapbook, Origins of My Love, was published by Bottlecap Press in 2021\. She can be found on Instagram at @erinwkzzfrdrk.*